Day 22

I wish I were better at teaching/speaking in public.  But I'm terrified of microphones (they make me nervous!).  I'm also terrified of being the center of attention.  I don't even like having my birthday announced and there dang sure better not be any restaurant singing...I'll happily pay for my birthday dessert as long as no one surrounds me and starts singing.  I have literally walked out on friends and family who did not take this seriously.  I HATE being the person everyone is paying attention too.
Now, over the years I've gotten slightly better.  I can make short announcements or introduce myself at retreats.  I've even taught some short little 15-20 minute lessons when used to do the love letter activity on retreats. 
I have always wanted to be a great speaker/teacher though.  Weird, right?  I'm terrified of doing the thing that I've always thought I'd like to be able to do some day.  It just doesn't seem to be my calling though.  Which I'm definitely ok with, I just also wish I could do it if necessary.  It will definitely have to be a Jesus thing if the occasion should ever arise.